Demi Leigh Richards

In Precious Memories Of My Baby Girl Demi-Leigh xx

Demi-Leigh was born on the 02/04/08 @11:36am and sadly grew her wings on the same day just 3 & a half hours old x she passed peacefully away in my arms and was pronounced an angel at 15:00 hours. this is a moment in my life i'll never forget, losing my baby girl xx

Demi-Leigh left this world an angel due to my membranes rupturing at 23 weeks due to a late diagnosis of a water infection. She defied the odds of being born 3-5days later and made her arrival 2 weeks later at 26+1 weeks at leicster royal infirmary x she was born very black but had a white patch on her left cheek.(as you will see in her picture) x she was 35cm long and weighed in at 1lb 2oz with a head circumfrence of 24cm x she was tiny but perfect xx sadly her lungs just wernt strong enough to take in the oxygen she needed and doctors broke the news to me to tell me they wanted to us to consider spending her last hour with her off the machine xx this became the worst day of my life and was terrifying to have to go through this as i felt i was doing this alone xxx as much and as hard and as agonising the choices i was given was i chose to take her off the ventilator and they brought her into us wrapped in a towel with her tubing still attached and placed her in my arms x i unwrapped the towel and stared down at our beautiful baby girl, we couldnt believe how perfect she was and seen how much she looked just like her big brother.. we sat and watched as her tiny chest rose and fell till the very last beat..shortly after her heart had stopped the doctor came in with his stethoscope to confirm what we already knew, but even though we knew she was gone the doctors words "im so sorry" plunged in our hearts like knives, the crys turned to pain, she couldnt be gone it was only 3 hours ago she was fighting for her life! i wrapped her back up in the towel once the doctor removed her tubing and from then on i cuddled and kissed her constantly, until the nurse came in to help us chose an outfit to dress demi-leigh in and even a wee pink hat.. we decided on the white "i love my mummy" sleep suit and a brightly coloured blanket to wrap her in.. she just looked like a baby who was enjoying her nap! the nurse had helped us to bathe her as her skin was so thin we were terrified of hurting her xx we stayed in the room with her till we couldnt keep our eyes open no more, so i placed her in her moses basket tucked her in and kissed her goodnight, she really did look like she was just sleeping xx

On the morning of 03/04/08 a nurse had knocked on the door of the "special" room we were in to inform us that i was now being transferred back onto the ward i came from! i couldnt believe it... they were sending me back to listen to newborn babies screaming to be fed/cuddled/kissed/sung too knowing my daughter lay cold in the morgue!!
upon arriving at the ward, all i heard around me was the sound of babies crying.. it was heartbreaking :( so at that moment i had decided i was going to discharge myself and go home.. but before i did this i asked the nurse if i could see my baby girl before i left, so she rang down to the morgue to inform them of my wishes... within an hour there was a knock on my room door "baby richards" one of the 2 guys in white clothing asked "yes" just as we said this they wheeled in a huge metal box flipped open the 2 halves of the lid and revealed a bundle of blankets! demi-leighs daddy slowly unwrapped the coloured blankets and thats when we saw our daughter for the first time since we kissed her goodnight... to our horror she had cardboard round her head and cotton wool underneath it... her daddy was that mortified he stormed over to the nurse at the desk and informed her of the reason they get called "meat markets" shocked by what she heard she didnt understand what he meant so decided to come see us in the room and see for herself why we were so angry! the poor woman couldnt stop apologising for wat the men in white clothing had done, she had informed us that they should have taken our baby to her first where she would then prepare her in her moses basket and make her look more presentable then bring her to us, even she was shocked at how they treated us! she took demi-leigh away to do what should have been done the 1st time x when she came back with her our baby girl looked beautiful, comfortable and as if she was sleeping... we picked her up and held her constantly kissed her and told her how much we will always love her.. we then decided to have her blessed, so a chaplain came and blessed our lil girl.. the hospital had given us 2 cameras to take as many photos as we could and thats what we did as well as with our mobile phone cameras too.. getting ready to say goodbye again was the next hard part.. crying non stop didnt want to put her down and walk away :( but i had too i couldnt stay any longer on that ward it was horrible! the journey home was even tougher my whole way home i stared blankly out the window watching the world go by wishing my lil girl was next to me going home to meet her family... but i knew this would never be the way she was now my guardian angel and opened my eyes to what i already had waiting at home for me, and that was her big brother xxx i cant thank my angel enough for the person she has helped me become today xx she truely is my guardian angel xxxxxxxxxxxx

Demi-Leigh was laid to rest on 17/04/08 at shire lodge cemetery and has been reunited with her great nanny ruby and great grandad leslie xxxxxxxxxxx

Demi-Leigh has a big brother Logan and is a big sister to her baby brother Tee-Jay xxxx She leaves behind her heartbroken mummy and family who all loved her so much and would do anything to have her back here with us xxx

Thank You to everyone who supported me during this very sad time in my life, but most of all i'd like to thank the Co-op funeral parlour on darley dale road in corby for the beautiful send off they gave for my baby girl and Thank You Father paul for a beautiful service you provided for my angel at St John the baptist church in corby old village xxx

R.i.p My Special Baby Girl xx i will always love you and miss you xxx

Millions of floaty kisses and cuddles forever and always xoxoxox
Love xXxMummyxXx

Also In Loving Memory Of My Beautiful Nana- Mary Macpherson xXx

Born 15th January 1950, Passed Away After A Short Illness Bravely Born On 23rd March 2011 xXx

She Was A Loving Mum && Nana Of 4 Children && 15 Grand-Children && 3 Great-GrandChildren One Being Demi-Leigh xXx

Missed And Loved Soo Much. My Life Has Been Left With Another Gapping Hole In It.. I Miss You Sooooo Much, I'm Not Coping As We Knew I Wouldn't, I Just Want To Cry Everyday But Cant Cuz Of The Boy's Who Also Miss You Loads, Logan Misses His"Boy" But Knows You Had To Go And Take Care Of His Sister In Heaven xXx
Forever In My Heart, Forever Loved && Missed x

Best Nana In The Whole World x
Love Always Your Number 1 && Our Boy's Logan && Tee-Jay xXx

God looked around his garden and found and empty space,
The looked upon this earth and saw your tired face.
He put his arms around you and lifted you to rest,
Gods garden must be beautiful.
He always takes the Best xxxx